37 weeks today!

Yay! The baby is officially full term! Wondering when he will make his debut... I think we have the majority of the things we need for the homebirth. Definitely all the necessities. A few odds and ends remain. We still need to wash all the baby clothes. We have a good amount. Lots of jammies! Still can't believe B and I are having a little boo! It's really mind blowing. I am the first out of my inner circle to take the plunge; it's cool but weird too because I feel like the spotlight is on me. I love attention but sometimes I feel like separated or isolated from others because I am going through something new to me and completely foreign to them. And even though I am of an age where a surprise pregnancy(unplanned but wanted) is not like a life destroyer, I still feel so young, you know? And I did say I wanted to have a baby before 30 so I guess someone out there or up there was listening...LOL! So I am feeling a lot more zen lately because I have completed the majority of my projects at work in anticipation of maternity leave. I have definitely been on my grind lately trying to do anything and everything I think should keep things fairly calm during my absence. I have a meeting with the bossman tomorrow morning. Hopefully that is not too painful. I am actually not looking forward to it because I feel like I already covered everything so I am worred he is going to bring up stuff that will further stress me out. But oh well, we will cross that bridge when we get there! In the meantime, I am starvin' like marvin' and did not bring my lunch today! booooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Maday! Maday! Maday! Meltdown Imminent!

I am not even back at the office yet and I am already in panic mode. I get like this every so often when I am feeling overwhelmed. I am just reminding myself that every time I panic about some sort of task, work or school related, I always ended up successfully completing it. My adrenaline just starts pumping overtime and I start panicking about things. Hence why I am up on a Sunday morning at 6 typing in my office. I am pretty much worn out and anything that requires that I leave the house today is pretty much the bane of my existence. I have a childbirth preparation class in like 4 hours which I WAS looking forward to but after yesterday in the Bronx at the zoo race walking to every exhibit, I feel DRAINED! And to make matters worse, once we got back from the Bronx, we had to go grocery shopping for dinner. I started having a meltdown in the street when we had done most of the shopping and then arrived at the fish market only to see it closing. So I was cranky because I was looking forward to some fried red or yellow snapper. I was really like yelling in the street. Dinner for me lacked protein significantly unfortunately. boooooooooooooooooo! Seriously, last night was like pregnant lady on the brink of insanity. I think the next couple of months are going to be work, home, sleep, repeat. Except for a possible trip to Fort Tyron Park for a picnic. It's so beautiful up there, I really want to spend the day there at least once before the baby comes. Yeah he is still "the baby" or Bojangles, another point of stress. We don't have a name. And we also are still battling it out over the circumcision issue. I also don't have a pediatrician yet... Oh boy, SOS! SOS! Let me not step onto this slippery slope. I don't want to sit here and ponder all the things that I am nervous/anxious about. Interestingly enough the actual birth is not even on that list. I am pretty zen about that. Okay, time for a little juice. Later people.