My Hair Is Finally Growing Back!

I suffered from postpartum hair loss. I mean I really suffered! My hairline was completely destroyed. It thinned out considerably around 4 months postpartum and it was VERY noticeable, at least to me. I didn't even want to wear my hair up because it was just so thin in the front! But now as I approach the 7 months postpartum mark, my hair is growing back. I was getting scared that it wouldn't grow back and that I would have to cut my locks off and start off from scratch! So now I can wear my ponytails and buns with confidence. I was getting sick of wearing my hair down. I have noticed thinning all over my head but I have decided to not worry about it since my hair is in fact growing back. So now that that situation is under control, I need to get this weight situation under control. It's hard to admit but I have actually gained like 8 pounds since my little one was born! I weigh about the same that I did when I graduated college but I am very disappointed in myself. I feel like a stranger in my own body. But I have decided enough is enough. Now that my little one is sleeping better at night, I need to force myself to get up at 6 in the morning and put in some time at the gym. It is pretty intimidating going back. I just feel like after being such a gym rat before, going back so completely out of shape and starting from square one is just really hard. But I have done it before and I can do it again. I just want to get my life back under control which includes my body, mind and spirit. Day in and day out my life has been revolving around my baby and I need to remember to set time aside for myself too. I have been trying to be better about eating. I have been getting smoothies a lot lately which I love. Especially with a good amount of spirulina in them. I need to just get all the ingredients and make them at home. And I need to start cooking more often. I don't think I remember the last time I cooked. B has been sorta taking care of the dinner thing but he's a carnivore so it's hard sometimes. I am usually so exhausted mentally from sitting in front of a computer all day that I just want to sit around and chill when I get home. I think if I could get myself to the gym like 5 times a week just doing cardio to start with and cooking maybe twice a week, that would do wonders for my self-esteem and my spirit. I am prone to depression and I was actually shocked when I didn't develop postpartum depression. But I feel myself getting blue as of late and I just need to shake things up and become proactive. I want to set a good example too for my little guy. He has started eating solids so I want to put myself in a good place nutritionally so that we can eventually share meals. Right now he eats bananas cut in half, small sweet potatoes whole or baked wedges, broccoli and apple sauce. I need to do some grocery shopping for him soon so that I can continue to give him a variety of things to eat. We just give him finger food type things. We are skipping purees except for apple sauce. And I have been feeding him almost exclusively organic except for that one time I was eating canteloupe and he just seemed like he wanted some. Oh well! Anyway, little man will be 7 months on the 22nd! Hoorah!

Baby Hair, Weight Watchers, the News

My little one is currently asleep on my chest in the Moby Baby wrap. He loves being carried. Babywearing rules! Now back to the subject at hand. My little one started losing his hair at about 3 weeks. And I mean he was really balding. He looked like a middle aged man with male pattern baldness! The front and middle of his head was completely bald and shiny! The pediatrician said it was normal with cradle cap and babies sometimes lose their hair anyway. But now at almost 7 weeks, it has grown back. He still has some original hair in the back though that hasn't fallen out yet. I am wondering if his hair is going to keep growing. My mom and I were looking at my brother's baby pictures and he had a full head of hair from birth! Like more hair than alot of adults! LOL!

So today is my first day of Weight Watchers. I am following the Core program where you do not have to write down everything you eat. You just choose foods from the list and eat until you feel satisfied, not hungry, but not stuffed. It's a pretty much fat-free, sugar free plan with an emphasis on whole, nutrious foods. No crazy diet food, just whole grains, veggies, fruits and dairy/dairy substitutes. I had a fruit smoothie this morning, so far, so good. I went to my first WW meeting this past saturday. It went well. It was great seeing everyone else there, all with the goal of getting to a healthy weight. My first weight loss goal is 10% of my weight. I think it will probably take me a few months to lose it. I just want to lose slow and steady; that way it is more likely to be real weight loss, fat and not water and muscle. Once you get to 10%, they give you a little key chain as a reward for your success. You also get to stand up in front of everyone and talk about what you are doing to get to your weight loss goal. I like the camraderie of the meetings. And the meeting leader is really cool. She actually lost 85 pounds, 215 pounds to 130!!! 50 of those pounds were with Weight Watchers. This week I am really going to get it together. I plan on going to the gym this week 5 times. I am going to go today after B gets home from work. It's so hard getting back into working out when you have a new baby. I just want to spend all my time with him and it's so hard to leave the house. I am just trying to cherish every moment. I know I am probably going to cry the first time I drop him off at the childcare provider. But I digress, if I want to get my body back together, the gym is a must along with the healthy diet. I was so gung-ho about getting back to the gym, but the sleepless night, the crying, the diaper changes and everything else made me pump the brakes a bit. And plus staying with my parents for the week of thanksgiving kind of slowed me down too. But I am determined and motivated. I know consistency and clean eating are the key. I look forward to getting back into running and being a yummy mummy by spring time.

On another note, I find it hard to watch the news these days. I feel like everytime I watch it, something horrible is happening to a child. Now that I have a child, it hits home...HARD! I just feel so bad for the family and cringe at the thought of anything happening to my little one. B said if anyone did anything to our little one, he would end up in jail. I said I would end up in the psych ward. I just can't even imagine it...