Friday, May 15, 2009
My Hair Is Finally Growing Back!
I suffered from postpartum hair loss. I mean I really suffered! My hairline was completely destroyed. It thinned out considerably around 4 months postpartum and it was VERY noticeable, at least to me. I didn't even want to wear my hair up because it was just so thin in the front! But now as I approach the 7 months postpartum mark, my hair is growing back. I was getting scared that it wouldn't grow back and that I would have to cut my locks off and start off from scratch! So now I can wear my ponytails and buns with confidence. I was getting sick of wearing my hair down. I have noticed thinning all over my head but I have decided to not worry about it since my hair is in fact growing back. So now that that situation is under control, I need to get this weight situation under control. It's hard to admit but I have actually gained like 8 pounds since my little one was born! I weigh about the same that I did when I graduated college but I am very disappointed in myself. I feel like a stranger in my own body. But I have decided enough is enough. Now that my little one is sleeping better at night, I need to force myself to get up at 6 in the morning and put in some time at the gym. It is pretty intimidating going back. I just feel like after being such a gym rat before, going back so completely out of shape and starting from square one is just really hard. But I have done it before and I can do it again. I just want to get my life back under control which includes my body, mind and spirit. Day in and day out my life has been revolving around my baby and I need to remember to set time aside for myself too. I have been trying to be better about eating. I have been getting smoothies a lot lately which I love. Especially with a good amount of spirulina in them. I need to just get all the ingredients and make them at home. And I need to start cooking more often. I don't think I remember the last time I cooked. B has been sorta taking care of the dinner thing but he's a carnivore so it's hard sometimes. I am usually so exhausted mentally from sitting in front of a computer all day that I just want to sit around and chill when I get home. I think if I could get myself to the gym like 5 times a week just doing cardio to start with and cooking maybe twice a week, that would do wonders for my self-esteem and my spirit. I am prone to depression and I was actually shocked when I didn't develop postpartum depression. But I feel myself getting blue as of late and I just need to shake things up and become proactive. I want to set a good example too for my little guy. He has started eating solids so I want to put myself in a good place nutritionally so that we can eventually share meals. Right now he eats bananas cut in half, small sweet potatoes whole or baked wedges, broccoli and apple sauce. I need to do some grocery shopping for him soon so that I can continue to give him a variety of things to eat. We just give him finger food type things. We are skipping purees except for apple sauce. And I have been feeding him almost exclusively organic except for that one time I was eating canteloupe and he just seemed like he wanted some. Oh well! Anyway, little man will be 7 months on the 22nd! Hoorah!
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