Finally a moment to myself!

Both of my guys, the little one and the big one, are sleeping so I finally get a moment to myself. After spending the night and the day with a fussy little one, B came home fussy too, asking about what's for dinner. So after spending some time with B and whipping up some dinner for him, I started getting ready to go to the gym. Then my cousin called, whom I hadn't talk to in ages so that delayed my gym venture for about half an hour. I finally made it to the gym at 9:30. When I left, both my guys were fast asleep on the sofa; what a sight that was! I never used to be a night gym person, but I kind of like it. It is a nice release at the end of the day. And coming back all sweaty and jumping in the shower feels so good! My birthday is coming up in a few weeks and I am really trying to jump start my weight loss. I saw the pictures of me and the baby from his 2 month pics and I was not happy with what I saw. Everyone has been telling me how good I look and how I don't look like I just had a baby. I think I let that get to my head. Now is the time to buckle down. I mean sure, I am within 7-8 pounds of my pre-preggo weight BUT my body needs lots and lots of work. I feel chubby. I think with the Weight Watchers and the working out that I am finally on my way to getting to my ideal weight and body without getting obsessive and extreme about it. I never used to pay attention to Weight Watchers but now I am like their number one fan. It really does give you a realistic way to lose those excess pounds. I was always trying fad diets and extreme diets and struggling to stay on them. I would lose weight and then gain some back. Now I feel good because I finally found something that fit. And I love that they have a special program for nursing moms. I do not want to jeopardize breastfeeding for weight loss so I feel great that I can do both at the same time. I love my little guy so much and I want to be a hot, fit, breastfeeding mommy! Come spring time, watch out world! I am totally reinventing myself. My Godsister is making a "look book" for my new style with all the pieces I need to create the new, postpartum me. I want to be a cool edgy maman. I am still young and I don't feel like I need to all of sudden dress the "mom" part. And all this motivates me to work harder at the gym. I want to be 3 pounds down by my birthday, 11 pounds by the time he is 5 months(he will be 3 months on the 22nd of this month), and at least 15 pounds by this summer. Sexy yummy mummy by the summer! Anyway, time to crash! Goodnight!